From the rising of the sun

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Thank God for the joy of waking up each morning! Whenever I am severely depressed, I dreaded waking up in the morning. That was always the hardest part of the day. I dreaded the thought of having to face another day of hopeless, useless and pain.

But now it is so different! Thank God for restoring me from my recent relapse of severe depression in July 2007. The wonderful thing about bipolar disorder or manic-depressive illness is that whenever I am better or well, I am usually kind of hypomanic. And at such time, I wake up each morning with joy and thankfulness. I look forward to the many challenges each day. I have a lot of ideas, become more creative, have more energy and there seemed to be so many things I want to do or accomplish each day.

Thank God for every opportunity to know Him and serve Him with each new given day. I pray that I may always know His love and faithfulness, no matter what He sovereignly allows me to go through in this pilgrim journey. I am thankful to God for enabling me to know His love and mercies experientially especially through my severe depression episodes. Those severe depression episodes are painful beyond words, but they also have a very sanctifying influence in my life. They are mercifully used by God to purge me of my dross.

Sometimes when I am well, I can be very complacent. Sometimes I get carried away by many things and thoughts that I have daily. I can be quite a workaholic and neglect God, my family, friends and people around me. I can become very task-orientated and just want to accomplish as much as possible daily. I derived satisfaction from doing a good job at whatever I do, as I am some kind of a perfectionist. Sometimes I forget to spend more time with God, forget to pray, forget to follow His Words and seek His guidance or direction.

Severe depression episodes are mercifully used by God to humble me, to bring me down more to earth and realize afresh what really matters in this life. Nothing in this life will last for eternity. Not my possessions, my reputations, my family, my career, my friends, my church, my hobbies, etc etc. None of these things will last. One day they shall all perish. But my relationship with our Heavenly Father and our beloved Saviour Lord Jesus Christ, shall last for all eternity! One day when all things are gone, and even my own life ends, our Lord Jesus Christ shall take me home to be with Himself in to enjoy His love and glory for all eternity. What a blessed hope!

Thank God for the encouraging reminders at the Westminster Shorter Catechism class at my church last evening.

Westminster Shorter Catechism Question 20: Did God leave all mankind to perish in the estate of sin and misery?

Answer: God having, out of his mere good pleasure, - from all eternity, - elected some to everlasting life, - did enter into a covenant of grace, to deliver them out of the estate of sin and misery, and to bring them into an estate of salvation by a Redeember.

My Pastor reminded us that God has established a covenant of grace with His people. He is a covenant keeping God and He will not break His covenant/promise/contract with us. Despites our sins and failures, God remains unchanging! Nothing can separate us from the love of God.

How I pray for grace to know God in very real and personal ways, to remember His love and faithfulness through all the changing scenes of life. And to be able to praise Him from the rising of the sun until the going down of the same.



This beautiful picture is taken by my friend, HH Sau, at Tai Po, Hong Kong.




From the rising of the sun unto the going down of the same the LORD'S name is to be praised. Psalm 113:3

4 Kind thoughts:

Renewed Daily said...

What a beautiful message. You are right God reminds us in ,many ways how important our relationship to Him is. His relationship is the only one that matters for when it is aligned right all others will follow. He is so awesome! I can't wait for all eternity to worship Him without the burden of this wandering heart and mind! Bless you this very day for your inspiring message. It's so cool to see that for you it is already morning - like an enticement for me to go to bed and wake up again to see that God is good. Have a great day while I sleep, my friend.

Your sister,
Angie

My Life with Bipolar Disorder said...

Thanks, Angie :)

Thank God that we belong to Him and can have the assurance of His love for us through all the changing scenes of life. And the blessed assurance that one day we shall be with Him in eternity, to enjoy His love and worship Him, and there shall be no more tears, pains and sufferings.

Meanwhile, may He enable us to run the race here in this pilgrim journey, patiently, looking unto our Lord Jesus Christ Who is the Author and Finisher of our faith.

Good night, sister. May you wake up with joy in the Lord knowing that He cares for you and will be with you through the day, and He is your refuge and strength, a very present help (Psalm 46:1). Take care.

Your sister in Christ,
Nancie

marja said...

Hi Nancie, You said that, "whenever I am better or well, I am usually kind of hypomanic. And at such time, I wake up each morning with joy and thankfulness"

I can see that in your eagerness about everything and know what that's like. I haven't been hypomanic for quite a while but have in the past spent many months that way. I would look forward to going to bed because I knew I'd have so much to look forward to the next morning. I was like a mother, promising her little child to go to sleep because of the big day that would start the next morning.

I used to wake up each morning saying, "This is the day the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it." I would even quote that verse to friends when I called them.

I haven't been like that for a long while, only getting depressed once in a while. But my doctor and I are working on that.

And yet I am very grateful to God for all he has done for me and for where he has taken me. He has been so good to me!

My Life with Bipolar Disorder said...

Hi Marja,

There are surely many similarities in our experiences! Thank God for His goodness to us.

It very heartening to see you so grateful to God for all He has done for you and for where He has taken you. Truly He is good to you.

Praise God that you are able to know His presence with you and His love for you. Surely He delights in your love for Him and in your honouring Him through your faith in Him. And your faithful labours of love for Him too.

I am keeping you in prayers that our Lord will continue to strengthen you so that your depression will be lesser and lesser. And you will once again be able to wake up each morning and say "This is the day the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it." Take care and God bless.

Your sister in Christ,
Nancie

 

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