Resting On God

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One of my friends and sister-in-Christ, Joyce L., gave me this lovely gift. She put the pieces of jigsaw puzzles together and frame it up. She told me to remember to rest and sleep whenever I feel very tired, physically or mentally. She knows that whenever I am well or better, I am slightly manic and tend to do a lot of things, and tends to be very tired after that. She realized that if I do not get enough rest for a period of time and face much stress daily, I will eventually plunged into severe depression. Thank God for her love and kindness.

One of the thing I found really helpful recently when I felt overly strained and stressed, is to break away from whatever I was doing and just go for some rest, sleep or break. A tired and stretched brain doesn't function very well and thoughts can be distorted, which in turned can affect my feelings and behaviours. A tired and overly strained body can't function very well either.

As my freelance projects involved a lot of concentration and mental strength, I do feel more easily tired mentally. Thank God that working freelance allows me to work around my schedule and health whenever my deadlines are manageable. So I can break away from my work and just go to seek the Lord in prayers or read God's Words. I also can go and rest when I am too tired or stressed up. I normally don't need to take a nap but recently I have been needing to do that. And the rest is indeed helpful. A short nap can rejuvenate me to continue with my tasks later on.

Whenever I am manic, I have difficulty keeping to my sleeping hours as I have many racing thoughts and projects in my mind. There are 101 things that I wanted to do. But shorter sleeping hours are both a trigger as well as a symptom of manic. Sometimes I forget about this. Too many nights of sleeping lesser hours and not enough rest will caused my body to be very very tired and eventually may even plunged me into depression. Overly stretched brain and body cause the chemical in my brain to go topsy turvy. Recognizing this pattern is still not easy but I am learning by and by.

I suspect I am feeling the extreme tiredness now because of the effect of manic recently. Though I have attempted to slow down, I am still pretty occupied. I am praying for God's grace now to take short breaks throughout the day. I also try my best to exercise daily. And now I make it a point to rest when I feel very tired. And if necessary, I take a day off from my routine. On Tuesday, it was good because in the morning I went out with a friend for a short freelance project. Then in the afternoon my sister and her family came and we had a great time together. My nephew and nieces played some simple games with me and we had a great time.

A frequent reaction to daily stresses is insomnia. Thank God that my medications ie Lamictal, a mood stabiliser and Seroquel, an anti-psychotic, do help with my sleep and I take them just before I sleep. So far I don't have insomnia. So I am keeping to my sleeping hours as much as I can as I realize that it is important in managing bipolar as well as stress.

Thank God that He gives us physical rest and sleep, and strengthen and refresh our body, soul and mind, to walk anew with Him each day. Every night, I shall lay down and sleep, I commit myself and all things into His loving hands, and I will awake the next day with the joy of the Lord, because the LORD sustained me!

Thank God that He gives us spiritual rest in Him too, and refresh our soul as we rest in Him.

Thank God that I am feeling so much better now. Though physically still rather tired but I have much peace and joy in the Lord once again. The heaviness of heart and weight of cares in the recent weeks, seemed to have been lifted up by our Lord. My circumstances didn't change very much but my thoughts and feelings have changed. Thank God that He is working in my heart to strengthen me and enable me to rest in Him.

Thank you for your prayers and encouragements, my dear friends and blogging friends. May we find rest in God daily, physically, mentally and spiritually, and be refreshed each day to continue to know Him, love Him and serve Him wherever He places us. To God be the glory!

RESTING ON GOD

O GOD MOST HIGH, MOST GLORIOUS,
The thought of thine infinite serenity cheers me,
For I am toiling and moiling, troubled and distressed,
but thou art for ever at perfect peace.
Thy designs cause thee no fear or care of unfulfilment,
they stand fast as the eternal hills.
Thy power knows no bond,
thy greatness no stint.
Thou bringest order out of confusion,
and my defeats are thy victories:
The Lord God omnipotent reigneth.
I come to thee as a sinner with cares and sorrow,
to leave every concern entirely to thee,
every sin calling for Christ's precious blood;
Revive deep spirituality in my heart;
Let me live near to the great shepherd,
hear his voice, know its tones, follow its calls.
Keep me from deception by causing me to abide in the truth,
from harm by helping me to walk in the power of the Spirit.
Give me intenser faith in the eternal verities,
burning into me by experience the things I know;
Let me never be ashamed of the truth of the gospel,
that I may bear its reproach,
vindicate it,
see Jesus as its essence,
know in it the power of the Spirit.
Lord, help me, for I am often lukewarm and chill;
unbelief mars my confidence,
sin makes me forget thee.
Let the weeds that grow in my soul be cut at their roots;
Grant me to know that I truly live only when I live to thee,
that all else is trifling.
Thy presence alone can make me holy, devout, strong and happy.
Abide in me, gracious God.

(Taken from "The Valley of Vision", A Collection of Puritan Prayers & Devotions, Edited by Arthur Bennett, Published by The Banner of Truth Trust, 1997, Page 129.)

16 Kind thoughts:

Jennifer said...

Thank you for your blog, what a great one..I too suffer from depression plus ocd and it's great to hear of somebody else who goes through the same things as me. It encourages me to read your blog. I am currently in therapy and hope it helps, pray for me and i will for you..i look forward to reading more of your blog..god bless
Jennifer

my life with bipolar disorder said...

Thanks, Jennifer, for visiting my blog and your encouraging comments. Thank you for praying for me. I am praying for you too. I am glad you are in therapy. May God strengthen and help you through the therapy.

I had a quick look at your blog. I am encouraged to read that you live your life to serve the Lord and if it was not for Him you could not get up each day. You know, I feel exactly the same way. It is for the Lord that I find a reasons to wake up each morning!

And such lovely picture you have there of Isaiah 40:31. It's a verse that always encouraged me. Thank God that He renews our strength daily as we wait upon Him. I hope to return to read more of your posts later. Take care and God bless! Nancie

Susan said...

Hello,my name is Susan from Precious Memories.I am so glad you dropped by.It is so good to meet new friends.I read your blog and know how tough it can be going though these trials.My daughter has depression and ocd.She is now in therapy.She has really been though some battles.Sometimes we ask God where are you during these trials.That is when he says I was carrying you.That is confort to know we have a God who is always there though it all.When it looks like there is no hope he is there.The most confort is on our knees looking up to our heavenly father in prayer who is there to listen.He knows all we go though and gives us that peace that passeth all understanding.I am so glad we serve such a wonderful God.My prayers are with you.Your days will soon be brighter. God Bless.

my life with bipolar disorder said...

Thanks, Susan, for stopping by and your very encouraging sharing. It is really wonderful to meet you and other Christians through our blogs.

Such a great comfort that we have a God who is always there no matter what we go through. And yes, we serve such a wonderful God! Thank you for your prayers. I am keeping you in my prayers too. May God Bless and keep you. Take care. Nancie

Jennifer said...

Thank you for the sweet comments on my blog..its so great to meet somebody with the same problems i face each day..isnt god wonderful how he puts people together that face the same trials..god bless
jennifer

Syd said...

Nanci,

I've been meaning to drop by to thank you for all the words of encouragement that you leave for me at my blog. I'm glad I picked today because I really needed to read this post. You are so right about the need for rest and how cyclical all this can be. Like you, when I'm hypomanic, I have so many things I want/need to do, and there simply aren't enough hours in the day. Thank God that He's teaching me to let some things go and to let Him decide how to prioritize my time. When I remember to do that, I get so much more accomplished.

Thanks so much for sharing.

Jim said...

Good is always with you even when you are asleep.

You did good tonight. Jim :)

my life with bipolar disorder said...

Jennifer, I am so glad we found each other, by His providence. It is really wonderful to read of God's goodness in each others' life.

In this life we may go through many difficulties, trials and afflictions but God is with us and graciously working all things for His glory and our good. We know more and more of His love and faithfulness through these difficulties in our life, and He also conforms us more and more to His image.

What a blessed hope that when our mission here is accomplished, God will take us home to be with Himself where there is no more suffering, sickness or tears, and we shall enjoy His love and fellowship for ever more. Meanwhile, let us race the race that is set before us, joyfully in our His strength and looking unto Jesus the Author and Finisher of our faith. Take care!

my life with bipolar disorder said...

Syd, thank you for stopping by. I am so glad that you are better and the Lord is strengthening you in Him.

It's a great challenge to learn to manage our hypomanic and to learn to let some things go and to let God decide how to prioritize our time. It is so true that we get so much more accomplished in that way. May God help us as we seek to learn to do this and remember it whenever the need arises! How I need to learn this and apply it, as I am such a forgetful person!

Thanks for stopping by. Take care!

my life with bipolar disorder said...

Thanks, Jim. Thank God that He gives us sleep, enable us to cast all cares upon Him and He rejuvenates us for a new day of knowing Him and serving Him.

marja said...

Sounds like you are very good at coping, Nancie, though it can be very difficult. And you stay close to God. You're a good example of someone who is benefiting from a strong faith. An example of how God can work in our lives.

I know that feeling tired doesn't feel good, and yet it helps us see what we need to do for ourselves, and that's good. I'm glad you're able to sleep. What a blessing!

Continue to take good care of yourself...and continue to rest on God.

Love, marja

my life with bipolar disorder said...

Thanks, Marja, for all your prayers and encouragements. Thank God for His mercies and faithfulness. It is He that is strengthening me day by day, teaching me to rest more and more in Him. Thank God for His presence with us, and His peace which passeth all understanding as we cast our cares upon Him. Surely His ways are higher than our ways, and He will guide and lead us in His ways as we look to Him.

You have been a tremendous encouragement to me too in the way you are trusting in the Lord and serving Him in the midst of your own afflictions. It is encouraging to see God working in your life also and using you to help so many who are suffering from mood disorders through Living Room and your blog. Do take core and may God be your strength daily.

Love, Nancie

Jenalexa said...

i admire your constant positiveness. mine died.

my life with bipolar disorder said...

Jena, don't lose hope. God can revive you and deliver you. It is He that is strengthening me day by day. I am weak but He is strong, and His strength is made perfect in my weaknesses.

It can be very difficult when our circumstances are trying and our own feelings, emotions and thoughts overwhelmed us. It is even harder when we are clinically depressed as the chemical in our brain malfunctioned and we can't think or feel aright, and our thoughts are mostly negative. That's when medication and other help is necessary to lift us up to a more functional level, and we can be more positive and benefit from other helps.

For me too, whenever I am down with severe depression, I can't enjoy God and His Words, and nothing helps very much until the chemical in my brain are restored.

Thankfully, now I am better and I can pray daily for God's grace to trust in Him and find joy in Him. Ultimately my life is to be lived for Him. As I belong to the Lord Jesus Christ and He loved me, He is definitely in control of my life and I need to find my reasons to carry on in Him alone.

I pray you too will find your hope in Him. This is only possible through reading the Bible and seeking God in prayers. I pray you will get better day by day. Take care, Jena.

eph2810 said...

It is so true. We can truly rest in Him and He will give us the strength to get through the challenges this side of heaven.

Be blessed today and always.

Thank you for stopping by Sting my Heart last week.

my life with bipolar disorder said...

Thanks for stopping by and your kind comment. It is really encouraging to remember afresh that God will give us strength to live for Him daily. Have a blessed day and week ahead!

 

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