Out of the Depths - The cloud of depression lifting

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Dear friends and readers,

Thanks for stopping by.

To be able to wake up this morning and humming Psalm 130 with simple joy in my heart is such a mercy of God!

The cloud of depression has been hanging over my heads for the last 3 weeks that it seems as if it will never go away. Depression is a very frightening illness as it has a strange way of pulling a black screen over my eyes whenever I go through a relapse, and robbed away all hope and joy in the Lord. I lost interest in the things that I used to do. I will be so exhausted every day that I don’t feel I have the energy to wake up and get through the day. Even simple thing like brushing my teeth seems like a chore! I dread to face each day and often wished I don't need to wake up.

Oh. How I hate this illness! It paralyses me and brought me through great pain and agonies. Yet I know in our Lord’s gracious and loving providence, He is using this bipolar disorder with depressive episodes for my sanctification. Every time the cloud is lifted, I feel like a new person, born again! The sting of sins and darkness so touched my heart and life, that nothing but only the blood of the Lord Jesus Christ and the work of the Holy Spirit that I could be delivered!

How I long to be free from these sins and remaining corruptions. I hate the sins I see in myself – my self-righteousness, pride, unbelief, self-centredness, materialism, etc etc.

The Lord has shown Himself mighty in my life once again through using His Words and various people to extend His presence to me. I pray for grace to live for Him, in Him and through Him, by His grace. I can do nothing without the Lord. How I feel this so sensibly!

Oh for grace to fix my eyes upon Jesus, from whence cometh my help and in Whom’s joy is my strength.


(or see https://youtu.be/vKFRcd4PntA)

Hope everyone have a blessed week ahead!

Warm Regards,
Nancie
10 January 2016

8 Kind thoughts:

Michelle-ozark crafter said...

Hello my dear sweet friend. I am praying always for you.

Nancie said...

Thank you, Michelle. You are such an encouraging person! Take care and have a blessed week.

Warm Regards,
Nancie

Peggy said...

Oh my goodness Nancie, This is why God placed you on my heart and in my mind to pray. And so I have and now I will continue. I'm so sorry that this cloud has been hanging over you yet am so thankful that even with all the heaviness, you were finally able to blog enough for us to know and battle this with you, my dear sister in Christ. You are not alone! Be strong! Be courageous! When you have a little strength even read your own words that I have read and found much encouragement often. I just clicked on the first one on your side bar and not only found my Mission blog, and the book and author I was trying to remember, but many uplifting words from you. I am glad that God led me to seek out a link to your blog thus discovering you and this current down side. But this is not you. "Greater is He that is in you, than ..." this depression or anything of this world. I'm going to leave you with this link for the days that you are up to it or have to force yourself to read 21 Days to Beat Depression but you have many resources and words of your own. May God speed up your recovery and may you sense His face shining on you as we pray for you! Praise God that you wrote these words and went to His Word for strength! Much love and prayers for you dear Nancie, ~ Peace and strength in Jesus' name - your sister in Christ, Peggy

Denise said...

praying for you precious one, love you.

Jean Kwok said...

Hello Nancie,

I am Jean and I am a Psychology student from the National University of Singapore. I am currently taking a module on Advanced Abnormal Psychology. For the module, we have an individual experimental research assignment. I am interested in working on Bipolar Disorder. While searching for Bipolar on Google, I came across your blog. I understand that you started the blog hoping to spread more awareness about the disorder and I was wondering if I would be able to interview you for my project, either through Skype or face to face or even email. Please be assured that all information from the interview will be kept confidential and are strictly for academic purposes only.

Many thanks in advanced!

Nancie said...

Thanks, Peggy! You are so sweet and encouraging. I always remember you fondly :) Thanks for the link. May God bless you too.

Warm Regards,
Nancie

Nancie said...

Thanks, Denise! May God bless and keep you.

Warm Regards,
Nancie

Nancie said...

Hello Jean,

Nice to hear from you! Thanks for writing. I am glad you found my blog.

Yes, I am hoping to help raise awareness as well as share resources I have found useful in helping me to be more functional. Thank God for providing various means.

I will be most glad to help in any way I can. You may email me your questions and I will answer them when I am available. My email is mylifewithbp@gmail.com

Drop me a note here after you email me as I don't always check the email.

Thanks again for writing. Have a nice week ahead.

Warm Regards,
Nancie

 

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